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I LOOOOOOOVE this pic!  zara's little bulat brown eyes, just like her abah. I love you.

online shopping

firstly, YEAY zara da sehat. after about 1 week fever, vomiting, lost of appetite (LOA). but wonder la, baby sethn jagung itu sgt la active... up and down the bed, the slide, and of course, mengemas rumah! Millions and zillions of thanks to pama coz dtg all the way from Shah Alam-Kluang to jaga the manja cucu. Ohh my god, zara sgt drama queen,ok... .. i wish i have the camera downloader now, so that i can upload all the things my little rascal did. so, as a working mother (lame excuse) I can restart  my online shopping again.online-windowshopping. eheheh..pengaruh kuat from my 'angelic' sisters ni.. haihh.. anyway, good excuse too coz i have to revamped my wardrobe yg semua baju pun da xmuat. Oh my god! talking about weight. prepregnancy: 50kg (superslim size S me) preggy: 74kg postpreggy: --- oh, pls 'almari' fairy, help me...pls grant my only wish: I want to fit back in size S me. all the bajus now go to the sisters. -_-

Failure

zara is not well since 7 days ago. productive cough, runny nose, fever, vomiting, LOA.. as a mother, i feel very very very very very very helpless! spiking fevers, vomitings at midnight... tepid sponging again and again and yet, still high temperature. gee. Alone with her, made me realize, I CANT DO ANYTHing! huhu.. sedihnye. zara syg, pls get well soon. mami miss my little rascal.
can u see the nakalness in her eyes? ehehhehe... love u, zara..

my baby.

first week of october was the worst for me. 1. just upgraded to a MO. ..yeah. at last after 2 years waiting. haha, yes! but hubby is away. and i got to know that they havent sent my particulars for full registration yet, which means, it'll be a long long waiting days for me to be reunited with hubby tersayang.. :( Zara was admitted to DEMC for 3 days.. the weakest point of my life. I was literally begging for my leaves to take care of my child.

a year after..

7 Jan 2012 : Zara one year. OMG. one wonderful year of being a mother. Its not a easy task. Its a very big responsibility. Seeing her growing in front of me, its a great gift that Allah gave me. Suatu keajaiban yang sangat menginsafkan aku yang daif. - her 1st heartbeat I saw at 8weeks POA - her trail of spine I saw at 18w POA - 19w POA - I pray in front of Kaabah for  berkah, kesihatan, keimanan, ketaqwaan, kesempurnaan,  keturunanku yang dilindungi Allah. Maha Besar Allah. Syukur Alhamdullilah utk semua kenikmatan yg diberi. - 22w POA - I saw Zara for the first time inside of me. a cute little baby who looks exactly like her abah. even the radiographer and the specialist also said the same. =D - 26w POA - Ujian. Thanks to my husband, the pillar of strength. aku redha and berserah kepada Allah. - 36wPOA another ujian, doctor tu salah scan!! huhu.. he said zara big baby and have to induce, tgk2 kecik je anak mami ni... - 36w+4d zara kena induce keluar.. huhu.. and almost there

Jealous

It's been years since the last post. Im in Kluang now, away from families and friends.. Zara is a big girl now. I think shes ready to be a kakak :D Cd away for kursus for lubnan :( sedihnye.... and me and little zara tinggal sendiri since 4 mths ago.. (waa.. how time flies so fast...) and everytime, i left zara with her pengasuh, there is one small tinge, dot... feelings of jealousy? huhu... Cd said its okay, but for me... ive spent the whole weekdays at work.. like 9hx7days.. only got to spend 48h with her during weekends, if tak buat locum... :( I hope, I pray that i can balik to Shah Alam! huhu.. I dont want to be here alone for the next one year. no. it's not healthy for me or baby.. :( and i dont really like my workplace too... arrgghhhh...